I'm not going to lie, I've definitely let some tears fall this week. The beginning of this week was not easy, but as I start a new week I'm taking in a big breath and pressing on, especially as I look forward to Wednesday when I get to go home.
This past week was rough in so many ways. Mostly because I have been in an extreme amount of discomfort. So much so that I've actually been taking a half of a pain pill at night and Motrin all day just to get some relief.
Tuesday I started to develop a cold sore on my nose, only the fifth time I have had one in my life and always on my nose. Apparently my body thinks I'm under a little bit of stress.
Monday I got word that my company is going to end their contract with the ER and Urgent Care I work at in the coming months, something I'm super sad about because I love the company I work for.
But even among the storms that seem to be unraveling before me, I'm so easily able to see the many blessings in my life.
Some how, some way I woke this morning without pain. I've been waiting for it to start back all day, but it seems to be gone. I know that this can only be a blessing from my Heavenly Father. He has heard my pleadings. But I'm sure even more that He has answered the prayers of my dear mother.
As soon as I saw and felt the cold sore start I sent a text to one of my PA friends who called in a prescription for me. 2 pills in 12 hours and a day later it was almost gone. Such a blessing, given my immune system is low and my body should have a hard time fighting any kind of infection.
I had a telephone visit with one of my company's VP's this week. She let me know that whatever happens in the coming weeks that I will still have health insurance and disability insurance and that I'll be taken care of. A huge blessing indeed, especially since I got new windows put in my house this week; an expense I should have waited on. She also offered me a job in Denver, California, NC or wherever else they have openings. However since I just bought a house in AZ, I have little desire to move for a job right now. I have many options and am grateful for the experience I have and the knowledge that the Lord will guide me to what is best for me, whether that means staying on with the new group or moving on to something else.
I found out this week that I've hit my max out of pocket of $2250. It wasn't hard to meet with a few chemo treatments. However, I also learned that my $1250 deductible is also included in the max out of pocket, which is another blessing. The rest of my medical care for this year will be paid for by my insurance. What a blessing, especially if another surgery is in my future.
Blessings are all around us. Sometimes it's hard to see the blessings when we feel bogged down, but they are there. I'm so grateful that even though I get discouraged at times that I know Heavenly Father is with me. Sometimes I'm sure at times He is even carrying me. Many times I see the blessings come from the support I have from family and friends. I've had several phone calls, text messages and emails this week by loved ones just checking in on me. They mean so very much and help make things easier.
Just like the turtle, I'm learning in life that slow and steady does win the race.
Last Sunday I had a lovely dinner and visit with my cousin Deborah and
her family. How grateful I am for my relationship with her and the
support she gives me along with all of my other cousins, friends and
I'm a daughter, sister, favorite auntie, friend, physician assistant, lover of candy, tulips, fruit, a good salad, traveling adventures, a good book, style, flip flops, spinach shakes, Boise State Football and cooking, who happened to be diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer in June 2013 and will fight like no other to live a positive, happy, vibracious, exciting life as a survivor and overcomer!