Wednesday, November 17, 2010
I'm sitting in a Hampton Inn somewhere in South Carolina, the half way point to my destination. I've worked three days in a row and now have two days that I get to enjoy with people that I love. I had planned on leaving in the morning, but realized that I would save an hour if I just left after work. So I have enjoyed the past two hours that I have been able to drive and think. Nothing deep, just random thoughts, like, why I have been able to sleep like a baby the last few weeks. I think this is because the stress that I have been carrying for the past several months has been absent from my life the past while or maybe it is because I was able to have some me time to relax with friends. Another thought, I saw a man today and yesterday with out half of his leg, this was actually two different men. I am really grateful that I have two full functioning legs! I really love Jack my GPS with his English accent. I would be totally lost with out him. Sometimes I would like to let the mean streak come out in me, but know that's so ugly and so I keep it hidden. Would I feel any better if it showed its self just a little? NO! I saw a black man with blue eyes today. You don't see that very often. His wife said she hadn't gotten tired of looking in them for the past 30 years. That was so sweet. I have realized over the past few weeks that I have gone back to my selfish ways. Not on purpose, but when you don't have anyone else in your thoughts at all times, it just happens. I don't think it is bad, it just gives me more time to focus on myself. That totally sounds selfish, but I don't mean it that way, just that I have been able to focus more on the growth that Heavenly Father seems to think that I need at this time in my life. I can't believe I paid $627 today on a plane ticket. Thank goodness for frequent flyer miles. Why do people say or act like they don't care about something or someone when you know they totally do, because if they did't they wouldn't do the things that they do? I am deathly afraid of hitting a deer. I have come way to close three times in the past few weeks including the gigantic one that ran across the freeway last night amoungst the wind, lightening, and torrential rains. I can still feel that pitter patter feeling when I think of four different moments in the past year when I felt it initially. Isn't that strange? I am totally in love with my IPAD! I added up the rest of my CME money that I have to use by the end of the year and it comes to just over $1300. I think that should be enough to pay half on my new Mac. Now to decide between a laptop and a desk top. I think that I am leaning towards a desk top, since I have the IPAD. I can't wait for December! I have so many days off throughout the month. It will be great to be able to get all of my holiday gifts together! See, I told you random thoughts. But you kept reading didn't you?