You Are Never Alone

 Over the last month I have never once felt alone, even when in a busy airport being given the devastating news that I was going to have to start chemo again, I didn't feel alone.  As I sat in that very busy Boston airport with tears streaming down my face a man came to sit next to me.  I told him I was sorry that I was crying and told him why.  And then he told me about his bout of cancer.  He was a stranger to me, but a child of the same God that I trust in and love.  I am sure that Heavenly Father sent him as an instrument in his hands to sit by me, to give me comfort and peace.

I love what Elaine Dalton says at the end of this video, "No matter how well prepared you think you are there are hills on the course...People cheering for you along the way who are absolutely essential...We are never alone.  Our Heavenly Father is only a prayer away.  You can rely on the enabling power of the Saviors Atonement.  And the Holy Ghost is within whispering distance."

I will totally admit, I wasn't in the least bit prepared for this hill that I'm having to climb.  However, because of the way I live my life with so much reliance on my Heavenly Father I suspect it is somewhat easier than if I didn't.  

I'm ever so blessed to have people all over the country cheering me on through this journey, who absolutely are essential to my health and well being.  You will never understand the strength I receive because of your support.  I have the largest army of friends, ward members and family members. Tonight at work, I brought out some of Terah's Army bracelets.  I was humbled by all who wanted to support me by wearing a token of me on their wrists.  I hope that as people wear these bracelets that they remember when times are tough, there is a way through trails.  I hope that my example of endurance gives others hope when they feel they can't endure hardships.  

Most of all I have felt strength and love from my Savior Jesus Christ and my Heavenly Father.   I know that as I keep my faith through the difficulties I'm facing, I will be blessed.   I know that the Lord will bless me, even as I face this insurmountable trial.  I love this quote by Jeffery R. Holland, "These difficult lessons teach us that man’s extremity is God’s opportunity, and if we will be humble and faithful, if we will be believing and not curse God for our problems, He can turn the unfair and inhumane and debilitating prisons of our lives into temples—or at least into a circumstance that can bring comfort and revelation, divine companionship and peace."

Yesterday we had a young mother come in unresponsive.  After being down for 57 minutes she regained a heart beat, but today remains on life support.  From this experience I again realized that my little trial is minor compared to her families and her 8 month old twins.  There are definitely other trials worse than mine.  I'll take this trial and I will make the most of it, hoping that while on this journey I can inspire someone along the way.  I know that Heavenly Father is right by me, as He always has been.

I absolutely love and believe this quote.  It has helped me many times along my life path.  "We are not alone in our little prisons here. When suffering, we may in fact be nearer to God than we’ve ever been in our entire lives. That knowledge can turn every such situation into a would-be temple.  Regarding our earthly journey, the Lord has promised, “I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up” (D&C 84:88). That is an everlasting declaration of God’s love and care for us, including—and perhaps especially—in times of trouble...We must not succumb to the fear that God has abandoned us or that He does not hear our prayers. He does hear us. He does see us. He does love us." Jeffery R. Holland.