Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Kind Of Scary
This afternoon I was doing some reading on the internet, not always the wisest thing to do. I was reading about ovarian cancer. Statistics say that 22,000 will be diagnosed this year with ovarian cancer and 14,000 will die. That is a scary statistic. They say that most women diagnosed with ovarian cancer don't live past 10 years. That is even scarier. But I know that I'm not most women, I was diagnosed at a much younger age than normal, I'm healthy and strong, I have a huge support team battling right along side of me, I have the belief and power of prayer and I have seen so many miracles with my diagnosis and treatment this far. I am no ordinary women and I'm not a statistic! I was given a 30-50% chance of being alive in 3-5 years when I was initially diagnosed, but I know Heavenly Father needs me on this earth for much longer than 5 or even 10 years. Not once have a felt I'm going to Him anytime soon, although the thought did cross my mind maybe once when I was deathly ill in the hospital. I have so much more good to do, lives to touch and more experiences to make me stronger and prepared when I do leave my earthly home to meet my Savior and Heavenly Father. My dad told me that when I was in the hospital he prayed that if I wasn't going to make it through this battle with the treatments, that it was okay to take me then so that I wouldn't have to go through this. But then dad has also always said, he has never felt that I am going to die. I better not; I have nieces and nephews to love on for years to come! I am not ready to be in a box and buried in the ground; talk about claustrophobic. So I must focus on getting 100% completely better, having faith that there is still so much good for me to do in this big bad world and stop reading on the internet.