Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Kind Of Scary

This afternoon I was doing some reading on the internet, not always the wisest thing to do.  I was reading about ovarian cancer.  Statistics say that 22,000 will be diagnosed this year with ovarian cancer and 14,000 will die.  That is a scary statistic.  They say that most women diagnosed with ovarian cancer don't live past 10 years.  That is even scarier.  But I know that I'm not most women, I was diagnosed at a much younger age than normal, I'm healthy and strong, I have a huge support team battling right along side of me, I have the belief and power of prayer and I have seen so many miracles with my diagnosis and treatment this far.  I am no ordinary women and I'm not a statistic!  I was given a 30-50% chance of being alive in 3-5 years when I was initially diagnosed, but I know Heavenly Father needs me on this earth for much longer than 5 or even 10 years.  Not once have a felt I'm going to Him anytime soon, although the thought did cross my mind maybe once when I was deathly ill in the hospital.  I have so much more good to do, lives to touch and more experiences to make me stronger and prepared when I do leave my earthly home to meet my Savior and Heavenly Father.  My dad told me that when I was in the hospital he prayed that if I wasn't going to make it through this battle with the treatments, that it was okay to take me then so that I wouldn't have to go through this.  But then dad has also always said, he has never felt that I am going to die.  I better not; I have nieces and nephews to love on for years to come!  I am not ready to be in a box and buried in the ground; talk about claustrophobic.  So I must focus on getting 100% completely better, having faith that there is still so much good for me to do in this big bad world and stop reading on the internet.


  1. It was so good to talk to you today. You sound great, and it makes me happy to hear you say you're doing so well thru the rounds of chemo. Keep up the good work! :) And stop looking up scary stats on the Internet. :)

  2. The internet is usually out dated and wrong and it doesn't even matter your going to be fine!! love aunt Leslie