I'm having some harsh chemo side effects from this weeks treatments. I'm feeling so very sleepy (but unable to fall asleep), achy, weak, dizzy, a little nauseous, major chest and epigastric tenderness which radiates to my left shoulder, freezing, and a very chubby face including my eyes and fingers from the gallons of fluids they have put in me from the chemo over the past 3 days. I have no appetite and haven't eaten much in the last 24 hours, but my stomach is rumbling so as I sit here typing, I'm enjoying a piece of pumpkin/gingerbread with chocolate chips and butterscotch chips to stop the rumbling. The bread is absolutely to die for even though I can't taste it much, thanks to my taste buds being off from chemo.
I am so happy to report though that my CA 125 is down to 13. That means chemo is working! I am wearing a t-shrit, a sweat shirt, my new BSU jacket, yoga pants, socks, a hat and have 2 heavy blankets on top of me, which has finally taken the chill off. Dang chemo, I will not miss you one bit come November. It probably doesn't help that it is windy, cloudy and ugly outside. I usually don't start feeling this bad until later tonight, but this all started last night so I went to bed after a good cry and slept all night. I'm not sure why I was crying. I wasn't in pain, I think just overly tired. In fact I should have been smiling from ear to ear, which I was earlier from several sweet text from my Italian Stallion who I get to see in 2 weeks when we will meet up in SLC. I can hardly wait to see him. Throughout Grad School he would whisper sweat nothings to me as he sat behind me, make me smile when I didn't feel like smiling and make me laugh when I didn't feel like laughing, fortunately cancer has brought our friendship back together again; I can't believe it has been 9 years since I have seen him. Better not let 9 more years pass between us again. It's nice to have something to look forward to through this horrible chemo treatment. One more treatment next week and I will be on my way to SLC for a week for a little break from it all before having my final chemo round!