Thursday, October 3, 2013

Harsh Chemo Side Effects

I'm having some harsh chemo side effects from this weeks treatments.  I'm feeling so very sleepy (but unable to fall asleep), achy, weak, dizzy, a little nauseous, major chest and epigastric tenderness which radiates to my left shoulder, freezing, and a very chubby face including my eyes and fingers from the gallons of fluids they have put in me from the chemo over the past 3 days.  I have no appetite and haven't eaten much in the last 24 hours, but my stomach is rumbling so as I sit here typing, I'm enjoying a piece of pumpkin/gingerbread with chocolate chips and butterscotch chips to stop the rumbling.  The bread is absolutely to die for even though I can't taste it much, thanks to my taste buds being off from chemo.
I am so happy to report though that my CA 125 is down to 13.  That means chemo is working!  I am wearing a t-shrit, a sweat shirt, my new BSU jacket, yoga pants, socks, a hat and have 2 heavy blankets on top of me, which has finally taken the chill off.  Dang chemo, I will not miss you one bit come November.  It probably doesn't help that it is windy, cloudy and ugly outside.  I usually don't start feeling this bad until later tonight, but this all started last night so I went to bed after a good cry and slept all night.  I'm not sure why I was crying.  I wasn't in pain, I think just overly tired.  In fact I should have been smiling from ear to ear, which I was earlier from several sweet text from my Italian Stallion who I get to see in 2 weeks when we will meet up in SLC.  I can hardly wait to see him.  Throughout Grad School he would whisper sweat nothings to me as he sat behind me, make me smile when I didn't feel like smiling and make me laugh when I didn't feel like laughing, fortunately cancer has brought our friendship back together again; I can't believe it has been 9 years since I have seen him.  Better not let 9 more years pass between us again.  It's nice to have something to look forward to through this horrible chemo treatment.  One more treatment next week and I will be on my way to SLC for a week for a little break from it all before having my final chemo round!


  1. You amaze me every single day Terah! I admire you so much. Hang in there the best you can. November is almost here!!!

  2. Amen to what Jennifer said!! I know I've told you before but you are such a good writer you have such a way with words that I can almost see, taste, hear, touch. I can't wait to read your first book!! LOVE A Leslie

  3. Italian Stallion?! OOOoooOOoOO! I like the sound of this :).
    I'm glad the chemo is working, but sorry about the side effects :(. Keeping you in our prayers always!