When I was in the hospital I walked this floor several times a day with friends, family members, nurses, nieces, cousins, my PCP and massage therapist. We always walked in a clock wise direction. Every time we would come to the end of the opposite hallway that my room was in, I would turn my head the other direction, because at that point I would come to the infusion room (AKA Chemo Room). I hated seeing that room knowing that in the near future I'd have to start chemo. I would sometimes even cry when I would come to that room, for fear of future chemo treatments. Today however when I walked the floor I walked counter clockwise and thought of the improvement I have had since those first 15 day's of June. I have yet to finish my post from that hospital stay and someday will, but it was a hard 15 days that aren't easily put into words. They were day's that I would never want my worst enemy to live through, day's that made me realize what an amazing, loving family and support system I have, day's that I layed in bed thinking why me, day's where I was treated by the most amazing doctors and nurses which made me want to be a better provider. Some of those day's I vaguely remember, other day's are day's I'd like to forget. However, as I walked several times a day around 4th South, I became stronger each day as I walked during the middle of the night, early mornings, late afternoons and in the evenings. Today as I passed room 494 I slightly cringed because of the pain and sickness that I experienced in that room, but as I thought about it more during each lap I realized how truly grateful I am for the peaceful feeling that was always present in that room. 494 was a room of great healing, a room where several prayers where said and answered, a room where many tears were shed and a room where relationships were strengthened. Walking on 4th floor and seeing the many nurses and CNA's that helped me through those 15 day's now brings great happiness to me and to those nurses as they see my progress and encourage me to keep fighting this great battle.